Its been 52 days without dad. The time he left was scary for me; It still is. It felt like a part of me got stolen or someone just stabbed my heart brutally. I cried a lot. For days; and I still do. "Time heals everything"; I always believed in it;Always. Not anymore. With every heart beat I miss him; even in my sleep he is on my mind. When I laugh I remember how much he loved my smile. I remember how he used to look at me with those proud eyes whenever I used to do well. When I wake up I remember how every morning he used to ask me "Want some tea?". I still can't forget a single thing.
In fact with time those memories are flashing back faster. Stronger. His face is becoming clearer. I can never stop loving him. I can never forget his eyes . His smile. How he was so jolly all the time with me; how he used to send me uncountable messages in one go; how he used to apologize whenever I used to get angry. He was so sweet. The sweetest.
I have done many mistakes though.
I ignored his messages several times because I was "busy " with other things. Many times I felt like calling and talking to him but I didn't.
I never told him how much I love him. When I had the chance to go meet him I didn't. When I wanted to hug him; kiss him; I held back and I didn't.
Oh! I wish I can just get him back for one day and just tell him all that I ever wanted to tell him. And do everything with him, and thank him for everything he has done for me and just hold his face and kiss him on his forehead and tell him I am proud to have a dad like him; That he is my hero. When people used to ask me what super power I want if I can have one I used to be blank, but now I know. I want the power to bring back people to life for at least a day!
Never ever take people for granted. Never miss opportunities to meet people and never stop talking with anyone just because you are angry. You never know when they will leave forever and at the end what remains is just regret; for life.
The loss of the loved ones is the biggest loss ever. I never knew what sorrow is exactly until I lost two important people recently. Now I know what it means to be sad.
No matter how bright I smile ; no matter how hard I laugh he will always be there in my heart; in my mind.
Every moment I wish I could get you back dad.
Miss you.
Love you.
